A Complicated Identity

Following are some of the important observations and outcomes from the about-to-end placement season... I came to know the exact strength of students and Number of courses run in the college. Psychometrics was the most favourite subject in PG-HR batch, even when we controlled for Gender, and individual differences :) There were so many faces on campus whom i didnt know at all..not by look niether by names...oval shaped, disgruntled, confident, round, sparkling, intelligent, extremely pissed at life, thoughtful, careless, worried, and reflecting sooo many emotions at a time... Due to huge time wastages in a day long process, my acquiantances increased exponentially as a result of variuos discussions with so many diff people to use those idle time slots.. God knows why but there were so many of those known and unknown ones who wished, counselled, supported and prayed for each other ...and the collective reassurance was really soothing for me in down times. Frankly speaking, I dont know w

'शोध' तू ओंजळ भरल्या सुवासाचा पारिजातकी स्पर्श... तू निरागस मनमधील अननुभूत हर्ष.... तू तप्त, त्रस्त जीवासाठी भरल्या मायेचा हात... कुट्ट काळोखाच्या गर्भातही कधीच न सुटणारी साथ... तू प्रेमाची पाखर धरणारी त्या आईची कूस... आणि त्या कुशीत मन मोकळ करणारा माझ्या डोळ्यातील पाऊस.... तू कधी अजिंक्य हृदयातील विजयाचा उन्माद... आणि कधीतरी काळीज हेलावून टाकणारी आर्त आर्त साद.... तू अंतरंग उलगडून सांगणार्‍या अपार मिठीचा आभास.... जीव उधळून द्यावा अशा उत्तुंग प्रेमाचा अभिध्यास.... तू सर्वस्व हरवून बसलेल्या मीरेच्या मनाचा गाभारा.... कोण्या अनामिक मनःपूर्तीसाठी दूरवर निखळलेला तारा..... तू विठुरयाच्या सावळया वात्सल्याची परिसीमा.... आणि येशूच्या गाहिर्‍या नजरेतील अथांग गरिमा..... तू ज्ञान...तू भक्ती.... तू सामर्थ्य....अन् मुक्ती..... तू माझ्यामधेच सामावलेल्या सृजनाचा ओघ..... आणि तरीही.....कधीच न संपणारा तुझा अतर्क्य वेडा शोध..! -- वेदवती जोशी

All those who are looking forward to another dose of a philosophical anecdote, please return to your respective works..(of course if you have anything worth doing :) for i m in no mood to ponder over so called " the very being" phenomenon and certainly not over "the search within".... I have just returned from a very memorable trip to Marine Drive (wow, how awesome that was!!) and i m in mood of top gear Masti :) so i have this urge to pen down some lighter moments... I m sure, everybody has his share of Goof-Ups in life; but God seems to be too generous with me in this area, for me to be gifted with too many, too frequent, and too impossible of such moments..i m still amazed by the amusement and discomfiture striking in equal amount on such happenstances....there are few of them really unforgettable... One of the first memories is obviously from schooldays.in my 5th standard class, being the class monitor, i had the responsibility of supervising the smooth distribu

err...umm..ok let me speak now... Last Eleven months or so have deprived me of the joy of being able to strike a cord and have a meaningful conversation with my own self. i fail to communicate and therefore explain too what do i mean exactly by having a conversation with myself. it is as vague as it can get. i dunno whether i talk to the mind, the conscience or just the psychological "me" for that matter, or i just try to think to myself, but whatever it may be, you cannot deny the powerful energy which oozes out of the entire process to make you stand firm...and the point is..i have been missing all that... when i try to dig deeper for finding out the cause behind this phenomenon,i am left muddled and perplexed all the more. if i say, the sheer number of interactions which i have been through in the last year has gone up improportionately which has specifically disturbed the aforesaid conversation, then that would not be a wise arguement, for i am not the kind of person who